.: asylum for the sane :.

I feel exhausted. It’s as if the accumulated exhaustion of this entire year has decided to ambush me at year end.

2009 has been a very long year to say the least.

Health

I’ve been a complete klutz this year. Awfully accident prone and oftenly sick. Who could forget my week long MC as I lay in bed thinking I was gonna die from food poisoning? Drama Queen, that I am

Or the time that I sprained both ankles (which led to both entire legs hurting so much) just because I took a wrong landing as I jumped over a ditch? And I came back from the hospital with both legs bandaged? Haha

or what about the time I sprained my hand and arm from slamming a door really hard?

Yes a cam whore never misses a chance to cam whore. Even if it means taking the photo with her sprained hand. Tsk.

I think this year I took more MCs than I would annual leaves haha. Let’s hope for better health next year then. Maybe I shouldn’t mention here that I’ve been having chest pains. But oh well, I just did. Shh.

Career

I worked so damn hard this year. Looking back on my accomplishments at work this year, I feel a tinge of pride. It’s truly a lot of work to have come thus far. I’ve learnt so many things, gotten to know so many new people, people come people go.

My teams in Jakarta grew by leaps and bounds and suddenly I have 2 incredibly big, capable and talented teams there that I can rely at any given time or day. And these two teams practically make two out of many firm foundations of the site.

And for the first time, I’ve started growing a team in Singapore too. Incredible. Even though it is something very new (less than a month), it has been incredibly exciting and fun to have my own team here.

More powers indeed come with extra responsibilities, as I’ve learned this year.

Of course with success come haters, which I totally do not give a shit about. 2009 has been an amazing year at work, despite the fact that I came close to giving up completely once or twice. I really am glad I didn’t. Here’s to another long, exciting and rewarding work year in 2010!

Personal Achievements

This is where I wish I can that I’ve learned how to ride a bicycle, or completed a marathon or won awards. But I didn’t achieve any of that. But what I did achieve (on a personal basis) are:

1) I finally got a domain. Thank you Toni, Nico and Indra for helping with the set up. and thank you FP for teaching me how to change my own theme, lol. Yes I work for a website but I can still be a tech-idiot at times.

2) I survived an earthquake. Even though I couldnt sleep for 2 weeks after that.

3) I learned how to bake! First for FP’s birthday cake (hehehe) and then for my own pleasure. Which reminds me, I haven’t baked in months!

4) I survived levels 3 and 4 of crazy spicy buffalo wings, despite sweat, tears and crazy internal heat. and the runs.

Part II still in the works. Be patient!

So I am still at home, away from work.

I was supposed to go back to work today but I got another day of MC when I went to the hospital’s A & E yesterday evening. I had been vomiting way too many times than I’d like to remember and felt so dizzy in between pukes.

I even thought I was dying (because I am such a drama queen) but it’s true. I felt so weak and overwhelmed by everything. I really thought I was dying.

So after being urged by Kawan E and FP to go to the A & E because they were so worried why I was still so sick despite a whole week on medication, I went.

One of the first things I had to do was urine in a cup, to ensure that I wasn’t pregnant. Whenever I had to do this (previously for full blood tests), I amaze myself for not spilling anything outside the cup. Thank god for that though, because it will be incredibly disgusting to hold the cup otherwise.

So anyway, after that I was attended to by a doctor, whose name I learned later from the MC he issued me, was Socrates.

Socrates! Like the philosopher!

Have I mentioned that he reminded me of Joey Tribiani / Doctor Drake Ramore from friends? hehehe. Quite a cute doctor.

And of course the cherry on top would be that he’s left handed.

So anyway, Doctor Socrates looked concerned as I told him I’ve seen my GP at least 3 times the past week and his eyes got wider as I emptied my bag off all the medications I’ve been on.

Tsk Tsk.

In the end, he told me to just stick to the antibiotics that my GP gave me and to throw the rest away. He would then give me another set of medicine.

Then, Doctor Socrates asked if I have been given a jab for my vomiting / dizziness. And is it okay if he were to give me a jab?

*panic*

I quickly smsed FP “I AM ABOUT TO GET A JAB” – which is in panic mode and saying that this is all his fault for asking me to come to the A & E.

I am not particularly scared of needles or jabs actually. I just don’t like it. It’s like how I don’t like tablets or I don’t like meat. Not scared, just pure dislike.

So when Doctor Socrates is beside me, ready with needle (yikes!), I told him, “I’m scared of jabs” because that’s the only words that will come out then.

And then he said, “I’m scared too!” and then slowly poked me with the needle. It wasn’t too painful but painful enough. Like to the bone.

Even now, my right arm hurts when I move it.

Anyway, let’s backtrack a bit. He actually told me something frightening just before the jab.

He told me about a rare side effect of the jab. On rare occasions, some patients might find their necks to be stiff and their tongues coming out. Should this happen, I was to go back to the A & E.

Of course this freaked me out even more. I have an active imagination you know! pfft.

After jabbing me with a needle, Doctor Socrates decided that he will poke me with a smaller needle to get a tiny bit of blood from me.

It hurt

But the good news is, my blood sugar level is normal

So I went home, took the medicine he gave me and fell into such a deep sleep. I slept from 8 pm till morning. I’m feeling much better now and should be ready for work tomorrow.

But of course, I went to bed with images of my tongue sticking out in my head.

Thanks Doctor Socrates.

For this entire week, I haven’t done two things: going to work and fasting.

I’ve been pretty sick with stomach flu as the days go by. I had to extend my MC twice this week – once on Wednesday and the other just this morning.

It is ironic that on these two days, I actually got up for sahur and had planned to fast. But alas, the respective days have something planned out for me.

I had already started to feel better yesterday (presumably because my MC officially ended yesterday) and was all out to go to work. But right after I showered, I started feeling giddy and nauseous again. So I’d figure that it is best I extend my MC and just have a good rest at home.

Which I did.

But another surprise was waiting round the corner for me. By late afternoon, I had developed a fever (now still under monitoring) and my throat has started to hurt. A big uh-oh.

FP said I got it from him, though I find it hard to believe because we hardly made contact these past few days. But still.. hmm.

The questions that are running through my mind right now are:

What if I don’t get well by Monday? And then what? Another week filled with MCs? That can’t be right.

Other concerns include:

How to go Geylang and find a nice baju for Hari Raya? It is already the last weekend before the festivities begin! And I won’t have time in the coming week to go clothes shopping due to my huge pile of work waiting for me in the office and having to make cookies and ketupats at home.

I actually can’t wait to make ketupats.

So I’ve just taken the fever medicine given to me just in case (though it is basically paracetamol) and will see the doctor again (third time this week!) tomorrow to get antibiotics – as instructed by FP himself.

Maybe then my doctor will give me a proper fever medicine, instead of some paracetamol rubbish.

I’m just so sick of being sick, though being away from work for a week has been quite a refreshing change.

My absence has caused quite a hectic time in the office, so that is always good to know because it means I’m wanted and needed. Right. No, I’m not being sarcastic or stuck-up – it’s true.

So let’s hope for a speedy recovery because I want to buy baju, make cookies and ketupats and sort out the mess at work.

I’ve already decided that perhaps it is time to wear blue this year.

I don’t know why, don’t ask. I’m delirious.

But it’s always good to get warm wishes in twitter / facebook / emails like these:

Thank you all so much for your care and concern